It has been almost a full year since I started this blog and I can't even begin to express how therapeutic it has been for me. Not only has it allowed me to rant, ramble and sort through all kinds of different thoughts and emotions, it has allowed me to share with everyone how my life is ever changing and evolving since the death of Alex.
I started writing on here strictly for myself; as a way to organize and try and make sense of everything that had happened. After a few posts, I started to receive e-mails, comments and Facebook messages thanking me for my honesty, and urging me to keep going. To this day they continue to trickle in. It is a weird thing to have those things said to you for something as personal as this, and it is incredibly flattering.
This blog has received over 5,200 views in over 15 countries (!!!). I want to thank everyone who has taken the time to read it- it means so much to me. Especially to those of you who have reached out with similar stories- thank you for being brave and sharing your experiences.
- Sara xx
I've been struggling a lot lately with a certain thought: what would Alex think of who I am today? It's a strange thought because I am not the same person I was when he was alive. Every action I make is in someway a reflection of what I've been through. I look the same, I sound the same, but I have never felt such a loss of connection to my former self.
I was wondering what Alex would say to me if we could still communicate, and I remembered something that his sister had sent to me last year. It's a very Alex way of thinking of things and when I read it, I have no problem envisioning him saying it to me (and to all those who love and mourn him). It all sounds so logical in a situation where logic really has no place.
